One pound..........I knew it wasn't going to be as good as last month but ONE POUND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't get it.........I worked hard at this...YES, I could have worked harder but it's not like I didn't try. I really did!! I didn't even stick around to see how other's did......but I did ask Kate and she is a shining star! So happy for her .  So we have another 4 weeks and NO WAY  am I  only going to drop ONE pound!!!!
I do believe that I may not be eating enough.....I don't eat lunch on the days I work and I am just going to have to force myself...even if it's only a piece of fruit. And I'm going to give it my best...EVERYDAY to workout!!!!
So I'm going to take my sorry butt to bed and tomorrow is a new day.

So disgusted with myself. Lost a pound!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I need to change a few things. First thing, I might not be eating enough. My work schedule is weird which throws off how I eat. Somehow, I need to change it. I only eat a protein bar in the morning and then dinner at 4:30. So most days, I skip a lunch.......not good. So that's a problem. Next, besides the elliptical, it's time to get walking. The weather is getting nice and I have no excuse.
I'm just so disgusted with myself. I basically maintained and yet I worked hard at this, this past month.
O.k. I have 4 weeks to really bust my butt.....until the next weigh in and this time, I'm going to make myself proud!!!!!!!!!

Well, I can honestly say, this is not going to be a good day!  I will be lucky if I lost 2 lbs..............and it isn't for a lack of trying. I'm just stuck and somehow I have to get past this. I guess I will use this to work harder next month.

I know I will not be a big "looser" this month. I am at a stand still and it makes me so mad. I will not give up but I'm not happy with myself.........One thing I am is a fighter and I plan on winning....not so much for the News Herald but for myself. YES, I will be embarrassed by my number in the paper (people at work are checking it) but...if I really cared about what people thought about me, I would have never entered this contest. I did this to help myself and others that could relate to what I am going through. That's why blogging is so important. I will get through this month, and work harder. One day at a time!

I will be lucky if I lost 2 lbs this month!  I started off good but the past two weeks, have gone down hill! So mad at myself........  Yesterday, I had a pigfest. I just couldn't stay away from the refrig and I know why. I was bored and depressed. Bad combination. Again, emotional eater. I wasn't hungry at all. Six days until weigh in and there aren't enough hours in the day, to fix what I have done! But I refuse to give up. So I will do the best I can these next 6 days and hopefully get back on track.

Today we are celebrating my Dad's birthday which means food and goodies.  Hopefully, I will behave myself!  Actually, I am more afraid about my emotional eating after I come home.....My father has lung cancer and I know this will be his last birthday and this is very difficult for me.
So my plan is to work out before I go to the party and when I get home. I need to replace my emotional eating with something positive. I have noticed more and more how much I go to food for comfort . I never really thought about it as much as I do now that I am watching what I eat.
I am also at a stand still with my weight. For some reason, I just can't drop a pound this week! Frustration! I have decided to write a journal and write down what I did that day and what I ate and see if it there's a connection.  I know there's times at work that I don't even realize I have been grazing all night on junk and it does add up especially working 2nd shift. When I'm at home, I don't snack in the evening but at work, it's a whole different story. That's has to stop.
Hope everyone has a great weekend  :)

Now I'm feeling the pressure! A week to go and my WT. is at a stand still :(   Didn't help that I ate a doughnut at work last night!  The test will be this weekend. We are celebrating my father's birthday and he want's pumpkin pie....which happens to be my favorite!  I know I could be doing better at working out but still just not into it.  But I made a promise to myself, the next 9 days, I WILL WORK OUT!

No green beer for me yesterday!  Had to work, which was probably a good thing....did need those extra calories.
Let the count down begin! We have 2 weeks...so if you have blown your diet, you have plenty of time to get a couple of pounds off before weigh in :) I plan on giving it my best shot!

O.K., so I had just blogged an hour ago about how things weren't going so well. I got back on my elliptical, and did 25 min. Then I thought I was going to torture myself by getting on the scale and I am now down 16 lbs. since Jan.15th!!!!!  I'm so excited! So now I am back on track, feeling like I am doing some things right and am motivated to work a little harder AGAIN!   :)

Yesterday, I was doing good, had a salad for dinner and then there was PIZZA!   I just had to have a piece :)  Well, one piece turned into two......I did stop there but then was mad at myself for giving in. It also gave me a stomach ache so that was a good thing...LOL. Decided I wasn't missing anything, and that my body wasn't happy with it either.
I have been slowing getting away from working out...not good. So once again, will get back on it today.

So I thought I blew my diet the past few days and decided to add more frustration to my life and got on the scale and I had lost 4lbs this past week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Doing the happy dance!!!!

Very frustrating weekend...........and yes, the emotional eater that I am....I ate!  I had bought a NEW car two weeks ago and someone hit the passenger side door hard with their car door. The "ding" runs all the way down the door! I was so mad when I saw it! YES, I am getting it fixed but I was just so upset over it. I haven't even made the first payment on it.  So I ate and I didn't work out. The car was the topper of my frustrations last week. I had so many little frustrating things come up last week but they all just kept adding up. So today, I'm back on it. Going to eat right and start working out. I really need to stop letting my frustrations effect my diet, because then I just add more to my worrying,

It's a great day so far!  Worked out , sore but a good sore :)  Decided I'm going to change my routine. Cardio in the morning and hand weights in the evening to build up my arms ( No more double waving!)  I also decided to start doing things for myself. Got a manicure, new make-up and a couple of new shirts. Must stay positive. This is one area in my life that I can control :)

O.k....I am determined to look good/better in my summer clothes. We have 3 months and that will go by fast. I really want this. I'm so sick of looking frumpy during the summer. I will never wear a bathing suit..........and that's o.k. but no more ugly t-shirts! I guess it comes down to ...how bad do I want it! We will see :)

I have my work cut out for me! Blew my diet for two days........Not getting near the scale. I didn't work out either. I just can't get out of this depression I'm in,. I don't know if its the weather, work, ,my father being ill........I just have no interest in doing anything. I think it's just the winter blues although can't really complain about this winter. So I am going to get back on track AGAIN. Going to work out this morning and keep moving on!

So I get on the scale yesterday and see that I have only lost one pound this week! What do I do...ate potatoes at dinner and topped it off with a doughnut! How stupid is that! Such an emotional eater.
I need to stop beating myself up and should be more positive that I lost a pound but I felt it wasn't enough. I'm the type of person that wants instant gratification and I have to keep telling myself, this is going to be a long journey and a new way of life.
Time to go work out!

Been in an ugly mood the past couple of days. Maybe its the weather! But I didn't work out either and I think that makes a difference in attitude so with that being said.....I'm back on my work out routine :) I have to admit, it gives me a lot of energy for the day. I am also going to try to give up my diet coke..........that's going to be difficult! So I plan on having caffeine withdraw.......crabby pants here I am! Time I get out of the chair and work out!
Hope everyone has a good weekend :D